I forgot how it feels like to not sleep at all. I couldn’t sleep last night because things are up in my crazy head I had grande coffee late in the evening. Okay, things are probably up in my crazy head alright. I know it already, this entry would be made of streams of disconnected thoughts. Please keep up with me. This is what happens when you can’t sleep, your heart beats a hundred miles a minute and your brain buzzes like an old noisy, desperately-in-need-of-repair or must-get-rid-off radio.

First off: I now don’t have a domain name

This is a long and irritating story but to cut it short, my domain name [musesonair.com] was cancelled “BY MISTAKE” by my domain registrar and I have to pay $80 if I want it back now or wait 30 days before I can have it registered again[ double pay for one domain name?!]. That domain name is not even 3 months old! I feel like I’m being asked to pay ransom money.

Until I decide on what I should do, I’ll be using this one for a while, which sucks by the way. It feels weird to be writing here, like my blog lacks the personality it should have [as if it has one before but you get the point].

Suggestions for a new name would be great. I’m too bummed out to think of one. Oh  damn, right! I’m practically talking to myself now since this blog won’t be showing on directories yet. I also have to inform those who linked with me to update their links. This is such a drag – or I can just let them know of the new domain name [if and] when I decide to have one again.

I think the people responsible for this H-A-S-S-L-E should do something about it. I cannot complain and explain any more than I did on my email. Their audacity of even telling me that I MIGHT HAVE ACCIDENTALLY CANCELLED MY DOMAIN while I was requesting for something so simple as mapping it to another WordPress.com blog is unbelievable! I even asked if it was possible before I requested for the change.

I know I can be anal on things and well, I guess this is the down side of being one but heck, no way will I take the blame for this “mistake”.

Second on the list: I must remember not to drink coffee after 6 in the evening.

Besides being bummed out the entire night because of the domain thing, my mind has been haywire since I got home last night and my pulse rate is above normal. I can feel my heart thumping as I forced myself to sleep. I finally gave up on sleep after 2 hours of trying. A new set of pimples plus dark circles under my eyes on my already pimply face wouldn’t make much of a difference. I would still hate how I look in the morning when I look at the mirror.

So yes, while I depend on caffeine to start-up my day and help me get through the day, I should avoid drinking coffee after 6 pm. My boyfriend used to give me a cup/day quota. I will have [must!] to go back to that or run the risk of having a lot more sleepless, heart-thumping nights than I can take.

Last but not the least: Zombies, Snakes, Owls

I wonder when my dreams turned into an all-night-open zoo. Bad dreams 3 days in a row is not fun. I would have been okay with nightmares because then, I can take it out of my crazy mind when I wake up and think of them as just that: nightmares. These dreams I’ve been having are not scary but disturbing. I get the same dreams every night. It’s like a TV series: same place, same characters, different episodes. They have bugged me to the point that I started looking at dream interpretations online.

Zombies

In my dreams, I was surrounded with zombies and was trying not to become one of them. They weren’t after me but I was being careful not to be noticed by them.

According to Dream Moods dreaming of zombies may suggest feeling out of touch or being stressed in your waking life that you are overwhelmed by forces beyond your control.

I would take the part of me being stressed in my waking life as an accurate interpretation.

Snakes

In one of my dreams, I saw myself scared and crawling under many snakes. Imagine a vineyard, instead of plants, there were snakes and I needed to crawl under them to get to the other side – and I did.

In Dream Moods, seeing a snake in your dreams signifies fears and worries threatening you. As a positive sign, snakes represent knowledge, wisdom and transformation.

Again, fears and worries came out as dream interpretations.

Owl

In another dream, I dreamed of a sky-load of owls flying toward me. At one time, they seemed to be fixed at one point and stared at me.

Seeing owls in a dream means wisdom, insight, expanded awareness and virtue. It may also tell you to let go of the past or negative behaviors.

Wait, what past?

The theme of my dreams and how it relates to my waking life

If I would put everything up together and come up with a unified theme for my dreams, it would be loads and loads of stress and wisdom that I should [must!] get from these stressors.

I never knew I am this [unconsciously] stressed. Yes, dreams are never to far away from your realities. I know there are reasons for these dreams but I am not one to rely my waking life on dreams.

“Cie la vie” as they say in French. In Filipino, I’d say ” bahala na si batman”.

…and I feel so much better after 981 words! Now, I need that caffeine fix.